~i have had days where i woke up from a nightmare where something has happened to one of my children. i realize it is a dream, but the hurt feels so real. all i can do is sit on the side of the bed and tap my foot and anxiously wait for them to wake up so i can hold them, purposely not take them to school, love on them all day, play with them, serve them etc…….all because of the feeling of what if they were taken away.

on other days like today….lucy woke me up at 5:30 am because she heard something knocking in her bedroom {this was very legit since a winter storm was blowing in. a tree was knocking on her window} i open up the covers for her to crawl in bed, hoping we can all snuggle back to sleep for a good 1 1/2 hours. but no…..she was hungry…..what was that noise…..i need to blow my nose……i want a drink. so lulu and i got up and started the day early. the demands came one after another. i tried really hard to be a bad mommy and just sit her in front of the tv {please just watch a movie and let me have one moment to even think} but no….she wanted to play. “mommy you be the mean witch {that is always what i have to be…blah}

thank goodness 2 of my best friends called within 5 min of one another. they were about to pull their hair out as well. i think the kiddos all secretly talked this morning about how to drive your mom crazy day. so within minutes both my friends were here, with their girls. we sent them off to play and had some great time catching up. {thank goodness for great friends!} the morning went by fast and all the girls had eachother to play with.

isn’t it funny……. their are days we will not let our kids go, and their are days we are ready to just send them away!

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listening to this

and this ~ it so reminds me of traveling with my best friend in europe. i can close my eyes, listen to this, and almost feel as if i am there!